I've realized that maybe wine isn't the ONLY thing that gets better with age. Sure I still catch myself slippin' and bumming out at getting "older", but there are days - like today - that I realize, me getting older is only making my life better.
It can also be credited to my amazing "partner in crime". We learn sooo much from each other still, he's growing, I'm growing - we're growing. I love him more everyday, it gets better with every day that passes.
Sure we fight, but who doesn't. It's the rebound time that matters. I can't stay mad at him for longer than an hour and to ME after almost 7 years together...I think that says something :)
He's finding his nitch and I get to come along for the ride...and what a ride it has been and I foresee it will be <3
Thanks for being who you are, boofriend. We make each other better people and I can't wait to see what's in store for us next!
Love love love xoxoxoxoxooo
9/24/09
7/24/09
7/11/09
Common reaction...
He slipped into her lover's body. It would be easier, quieter with a familiar face. He laid there for a moment, watching her, wondering what it was that had her so entranced. A pang of guilt almost stopped him from rising slowly to his feet...almost stopped him. His footsteps were mute to her ears, she wore the Skullcandy headphones snuggly on her ears, pushing back her wild morning hair...
He inched forward, like the predator he had become. He knew with one precise motion it would be over. Hovering closer, he smelled the remanence of her lavender perfume from last night. It stung him, close to this human's heart. This body he'd taken over, one of the pitfalls of using such a personal technique. He shoveled the thoughts of remorse further back into his mind, knowing fully that this was his job and there was no way around it.
He felt a single bead of sweat form at the nape of his neck and make the slow descent down his bare chest. Time was running short, with one careful movement he wrapped his arms tightly around her from behind. Her head tilted back, a long, wide smile spread across her face. She was welcoming his warmth, a face, belonging to a man so close and tender to her heart there was no reservation in the intimate gesture.
Grabbing tighter, he slowly moved his arms up her body, releasing enough for his hands to slide onto her fragile, human neck...her eyes fell back to the computer screen, a slight sigh escaping her lips. She was unaware of the underlying undertone, too wrapped up in a lover's embrace. He leaned forward, putting his face to the crown of her head kissing firmly atop her raven black hair. He mused her, then broke her.
He broke her into a thousand tiny pieces...
Her limp body, slid slightly forward in the chair, lifeless, unmoving. Once again, he had done his job, flawlessly without effort.
He returned her lover's body back to the bed, let it fall into a sleeping position. Slowly regaining the life that had been put on pause. He used others without regret, framed them without thought.
He hovered above the bedroom, looking once at her sleeping lover and again at her. Unmoving, dead.
He was a reaper. There was no room for compassion.
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"Dreams Like That" - 7.11.2009 - 6am - xo, K
"Common Reaction" -UhHuhHer <3
He inched forward, like the predator he had become. He knew with one precise motion it would be over. Hovering closer, he smelled the remanence of her lavender perfume from last night. It stung him, close to this human's heart. This body he'd taken over, one of the pitfalls of using such a personal technique. He shoveled the thoughts of remorse further back into his mind, knowing fully that this was his job and there was no way around it.
He felt a single bead of sweat form at the nape of his neck and make the slow descent down his bare chest. Time was running short, with one careful movement he wrapped his arms tightly around her from behind. Her head tilted back, a long, wide smile spread across her face. She was welcoming his warmth, a face, belonging to a man so close and tender to her heart there was no reservation in the intimate gesture.
Grabbing tighter, he slowly moved his arms up her body, releasing enough for his hands to slide onto her fragile, human neck...her eyes fell back to the computer screen, a slight sigh escaping her lips. She was unaware of the underlying undertone, too wrapped up in a lover's embrace. He leaned forward, putting his face to the crown of her head kissing firmly atop her raven black hair. He mused her, then broke her.
He broke her into a thousand tiny pieces...
Her limp body, slid slightly forward in the chair, lifeless, unmoving. Once again, he had done his job, flawlessly without effort.
He returned her lover's body back to the bed, let it fall into a sleeping position. Slowly regaining the life that had been put on pause. He used others without regret, framed them without thought.
He hovered above the bedroom, looking once at her sleeping lover and again at her. Unmoving, dead.
He was a reaper. There was no room for compassion.
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"Dreams Like That" - 7.11.2009 - 6am - xo, K
"Common Reaction" -UhHuhHer <3
6/8/09
5/26/09
5/19/09
5/1/09
And all the words I need to hear from you...
katie,
i don't know what happened to you inside. maybe you hurt cause i was far. whatever the case u have ur reasons. i just know that it is put off too long wayyyyyyyyy fucking long for us not even to share a weekend together.
you mean a LOT to me katie. that has never changed and i dont want it to change. i am at the end of my rope tho. we have to like meet up before the new year.
i am game no bs. so if u have money probs or whatever thats cool. ill come out. i dont care where u are. i will come and chill with my sidekick. i would be cheating life if i dont ever get the chance to share the same space as you... to share the same laughter with u... to watch the same movie with u and lastly to just chilllaax and just act stupid with u face to face. 2 see ur smile in person and to give ya a hug when ur down or happy ... or for no reason at all would give me completion.
katie its like soul shit. maaaadddddddddddd complementary. i feel it and can never ignore it. ever. shit i dont want to. i been there and talked about with u many times. shit to ignore that would be ignoring the best part about being on this earth.
katie i could go on and on. but i don't want to type it out or say it over the phone. i just want it to happen and it will so u will be seeing my face soon. be strong girl. u owe it to yourself the world isn't a sucky place its awesome. sometimes u feel and get hit hard with the dirty sucky ass horrible shit so u just feel more alive when things finally turn for the tide. some heads get crapped on more than others. i dunno why its just the way it is.
i miss u katie all the time. and so many times when im done work or feeling down i wish you were like right down the street. i have learned to live with it. but i do get offended when u say just leave u be and dont care. because if i said the same thing i would hope you wouldnt just leave me be or dont care.
i dont even care if ur into me romantically or attracted to me katie. i just want to be ur sidekick. and u for me. u became a part of me katie. (my eyes r glossy as imtypin this) and .. if something were to ever happen to u somethin inside of me that is soo true to me..a main part of my essence.. would die too. i dont want to be a cold personbkatie i dont. u r my snugglez and it kills me right now thinking of u that u r so far and upset. it eats at me real bad. i would hope me telling u this shows how much u r worth to somebody's life.
so please lets arrange a date or something we can chill. like i said ill come out. somethin tells me ur not so hype on seeing me and i dunno why. because if u wanted it bad enuff u would have made it happen. maybe i am wrong. at least i hope i am.
im gonna go lay on the sofa and think about u now and pass out.
NO OTHER GIRL OR PERSON CAN REPLACE YOU AS MY SIDEKICK KATIE! NO ONE>!
I LOVE YOU. -XXX
_________________________________________________________
Falling sky grows darker every day,
the moonlight fading as you walk away.
All the roads that lead me to your heart...
have gone astray.
My hands are tied behind my back,
and I’m weakened by, your slow attack,
you take me in, then change your mind again.
Your spinning wheel won't lead me to your view,
and all the words I need to hear from you...
holding on, but I guess I'm out of luck
...and still in LOVE with you.
My hands are tied behind my back,
and I’m weakened by, your slow attack,
you take me in, then change your mind again.
Hold my face in your hands, look into my eyes...
so I understand all the thoughts inside your mind.
Tell me it's time...
My hands are tied behind my back,
and I’m weakened by, your slow attack,
you take me in, then change your mind again.
__________________________________________________________
Loves an excuse to get hurt.
-circa 2006-
i don't know what happened to you inside. maybe you hurt cause i was far. whatever the case u have ur reasons. i just know that it is put off too long wayyyyyyyyy fucking long for us not even to share a weekend together.
you mean a LOT to me katie. that has never changed and i dont want it to change. i am at the end of my rope tho. we have to like meet up before the new year.
i am game no bs. so if u have money probs or whatever thats cool. ill come out. i dont care where u are. i will come and chill with my sidekick. i would be cheating life if i dont ever get the chance to share the same space as you... to share the same laughter with u... to watch the same movie with u and lastly to just chilllaax and just act stupid with u face to face. 2 see ur smile in person and to give ya a hug when ur down or happy ... or for no reason at all would give me completion.
katie its like soul shit. maaaadddddddddddd complementary. i feel it and can never ignore it. ever. shit i dont want to. i been there and talked about with u many times. shit to ignore that would be ignoring the best part about being on this earth.
katie i could go on and on. but i don't want to type it out or say it over the phone. i just want it to happen and it will so u will be seeing my face soon. be strong girl. u owe it to yourself the world isn't a sucky place its awesome. sometimes u feel and get hit hard with the dirty sucky ass horrible shit so u just feel more alive when things finally turn for the tide. some heads get crapped on more than others. i dunno why its just the way it is.
i miss u katie all the time. and so many times when im done work or feeling down i wish you were like right down the street. i have learned to live with it. but i do get offended when u say just leave u be and dont care. because if i said the same thing i would hope you wouldnt just leave me be or dont care.
i dont even care if ur into me romantically or attracted to me katie. i just want to be ur sidekick. and u for me. u became a part of me katie. (my eyes r glossy as imtypin this) and .. if something were to ever happen to u somethin inside of me that is soo true to me..a main part of my essence.. would die too. i dont want to be a cold personbkatie i dont. u r my snugglez and it kills me right now thinking of u that u r so far and upset. it eats at me real bad. i would hope me telling u this shows how much u r worth to somebody's life.
so please lets arrange a date or something we can chill. like i said ill come out. somethin tells me ur not so hype on seeing me and i dunno why. because if u wanted it bad enuff u would have made it happen. maybe i am wrong. at least i hope i am.
im gonna go lay on the sofa and think about u now and pass out.
NO OTHER GIRL OR PERSON CAN REPLACE YOU AS MY SIDEKICK KATIE! NO ONE>!
I LOVE YOU. -XXX
_________________________________________________________
Falling sky grows darker every day,
the moonlight fading as you walk away.
All the roads that lead me to your heart...
have gone astray.
My hands are tied behind my back,
and I’m weakened by, your slow attack,
you take me in, then change your mind again.
Your spinning wheel won't lead me to your view,
and all the words I need to hear from you...
holding on, but I guess I'm out of luck
...and still in LOVE with you.
My hands are tied behind my back,
and I’m weakened by, your slow attack,
you take me in, then change your mind again.
Hold my face in your hands, look into my eyes...
so I understand all the thoughts inside your mind.
Tell me it's time...
My hands are tied behind my back,
and I’m weakened by, your slow attack,
you take me in, then change your mind again.
__________________________________________________________
Loves an excuse to get hurt.
-circa 2006-
4/12/09
Aint it funny...
when you can truly smile and be happy for someone other than yourself, especially after the heartache.
I want to elaborate, maybe later today... :)
I am happy that you are finally happy.
__________________________________________________________
Several hours later lol...back from a long day of Easter egg hunts with family, friends and good food <3
I have so much fun with the people closest to my heart, who know and love me for who I am...all day errrrday...
which brings me back to this blog. I happened across something today that made me smile and think to myself how lucky I am and how lucky we all are to find peace in those we love.
There were days that would go by, that I thought I would never truly be happy and truly have someone to call my other...then my eyes opened and there he was, my bisou, my heart, my world.
I have never felt so much UNCONDITIONAL love for someone as I do for him, my heart aches for him and I give into him. I have given my whole heart to him and I have seen that someone who was once very dear to me has found this very same thing in someone else...
I am elated. I never thought the day would come that I would so selflessly share in the joy for another person in love. But I am, grinning from ear to ear :)
Today was an amazing day, tomorrow is an amazing day.
xo, K
The Atlantic was born today, and I'll tell you how:
The clouds above opened up and let it out.
I was standing on the surface of a perforated sphere
When the water filled every hole.
And thousands upon thousands made an ocean,
Making islands where no island should go.
Oh no.
Most people were overjoyed; they took to their boats.
I thought it less like a lake and more like a moat.
The rhythm of my footsteps crossing floodlands to your door
Have been silenced forever more.
The distance is quite simply much too far for me to row
It seems farther than ever before
Oh no.
I need you so much closer
I need you so much closer
So come on, come on
__________________________________________________________
"Transatlanticism" Death Cab for Cutie
I want to elaborate, maybe later today... :)
I am happy that you are finally happy.
__________________________________________________________
Several hours later lol...back from a long day of Easter egg hunts with family, friends and good food <3
I have so much fun with the people closest to my heart, who know and love me for who I am...all day errrrday...
which brings me back to this blog. I happened across something today that made me smile and think to myself how lucky I am and how lucky we all are to find peace in those we love.
There were days that would go by, that I thought I would never truly be happy and truly have someone to call my other...then my eyes opened and there he was, my bisou, my heart, my world.
I have never felt so much UNCONDITIONAL love for someone as I do for him, my heart aches for him and I give into him. I have given my whole heart to him and I have seen that someone who was once very dear to me has found this very same thing in someone else...
I am elated. I never thought the day would come that I would so selflessly share in the joy for another person in love. But I am, grinning from ear to ear :)
Today was an amazing day, tomorrow is an amazing day.
xo, K
The Atlantic was born today, and I'll tell you how:
The clouds above opened up and let it out.
I was standing on the surface of a perforated sphere
When the water filled every hole.
And thousands upon thousands made an ocean,
Making islands where no island should go.
Oh no.
Most people were overjoyed; they took to their boats.
I thought it less like a lake and more like a moat.
The rhythm of my footsteps crossing floodlands to your door
Have been silenced forever more.
The distance is quite simply much too far for me to row
It seems farther than ever before
Oh no.
I need you so much closer
I need you so much closer
So come on, come on
__________________________________________________________
"Transatlanticism" Death Cab for Cutie
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